Perhaps you have seen one of the many articles going around discussing video-conferencing fatigue– like this one: (click here).
“Our minds are together when our bodies feel we’re not. That dissonance, which causes people to have conflicting feelings, is exhausting.”
Another word I could use is haunting. Whether it’s worship, a meeting, or a dance class via video-conference, getting to engage with people ONLY via screen has begun to remind me more of your absence than your presence. Your face on my screen just reminds me of your presence that is getting further and further away. Don’t get me wrong– I’m terribly grateful for all the tech that allows us to stay connected while being physically distanced. And there is no escaping the fact how much I miss you– how much I miss gathering–how much I miss lightly placing my palm on your upper-back as you walk into the sanctuary. I even miss the awkward moments when I try to discern whether you want some kind of touch or whether you prefer physical space as you enter the sanctuary (hint: I always try to follow your lead!)
Perhaps this is why I found myself angry during one of my video-conference dance classes. Like a tantrum my 2.5 year is throwing, I just want to stop my feet and say “I DON’T LIKE THIS-NO NO NO NO!”
At our worship team meeting this week, we discussed this balancing act, a dance if you will, we all have to do right now– expressing gratitude for the many blessings in our lives (including all the tech) and at the same time extending compassion to ourselves and others when feelings like anger and sadness come up. We don’t want to repress the grief nor do we want to get overwhelmed by it. It’s a balancing act, a delicate dance.
I hope you will do some of this dance with me online this Sunday, at 10:30am. Join us for worship on Zoom: https://zoom.us/j/976539809. The meeting ID is 976-539-809. To get the password you will need to join, please send a private message to our public facebook page (click here) and you will get a very quick reply with the password! (sadly, because of ‘zoombombings’, we are needing to take some precautions but are services are open to all with non-hacking intentions!)